Motivation.. What's that?!

This weeks word: Motivation.

It's a cool word and all, but why?

Because that's what life is. Finding that motivation and using it EVERYDAY. Cole is my motivation. And why wouldn't it be?! I figure I can look at it two ways- be excited for the days that have already gone by, or be discouraged by the days that seem like they are frozen in front of me.

Cole write to me telling me how inspired he is and how excited he is to see me. That's what keeps him going. Honestly, me too!! =] It's interesting how 25,000 miles can make you such a stronger person. Full of self-control, patience and courage.

I am moving to Sierra Vista, Arizona in a little over a month! July 18th if we want to get all specific now! I am SO excited! We are starting a life together!!! The challenge was- picking an apartment out of our three choices of complex's. Sounds easy? Close your eyes and point, right? But wait... that complex keeps nailing me with more and more "deposits" and "fees", while this other one is cheaper, smaller and less amenities, it's affordable! I vote affordability... and I am SURE Cole would feel the same way. So I decided on a one bedroom, one back 600 sq. ft. apartment. Simple.

What else is new? I am going to the gym!! Why? I'm "skinny" right? WRONG. I REFUSE to be the fat wife that my husband doesn't recognize when I see him on graduation day! I want to be that in-shape, fit woman who will get up every morning at 5am and run 3 miles with him! And... I don't want stomach flab nastiness. I refuse. The easy part is getting my legs and arms all muscular again. My legs already feel a 100's better, but I am still glaring at my "abs" in the mirror every morning.
So, the fitness plan? Gym everyday. Cardio for at least 20 min when using other machines in the same day or at least 40min with a good cool down and some ab work. CUT OUT ANY fast food. It's the devil. And then... slowly start cutting out unnecessary sugars. I feel like the Jamba Juice in front of me is too much sugar, but then I realize it's better than a Slurpee and I am taking baby steps to get to my goal. Oh! My goal! Run 3 miles and to look HOT for graduation! Haha.

I have been writing Cole everyday... and I mean EVERYDAY. Sometimes more than once a day!

As I was writing this, I got my first phone call from Cole. It was the most intense moment of my life pressing the answer button. It was like instant adrenaline! It was hard to talk for both of us... I scream "Hi Baby!" and he said "Hey babe!! I don't have much time so tell me EVERYTHING!". That was my highlight of the phone call. Jitters and trying to hold back tears and eventually all I could sputter by the end of the 7 min was "I am so sorry... I love you sooo much." He then yelled "Crap! I have to go! I love you too soo much!" *Click*. I just stood there with the phone to my ear crying my eyes out. All he could think about was stressing if everything at home was okay... IT"S OKAY!!! I PROMISE!!! Work on being a bad ass and not worrying so much! I wish I could just give him a hug, even a short one, so he would know it was all okay.

I guess I have to settle for letters for now. Those don't make me feel much better either. It takes a whole week to get them and even longer if the drill instructor decided to hold them awhile.

I have my plane ticket to go an see him!! I feel like it is so far away, but if I think about it right, I am only moving in a month!! And then once I get to Arizona, it is smoooooth sailing!!