35 days from today, I will be sitting with my soldier, in his ACU's, under a shady tree in the the hot summer sun...
Yep, that's the way I'd like to think of it! Every day I become more and more excited, motivated and totally ready to see him! I have been told that I am going through boot camp at the same time as Cole. I never really thought of it that way, but after he passed in to White Phase I feel like I phased as well. Days a shorter, brighter and I am constantly motivated to do new things, write longer letters and actually start packing!
Today, I am waiting on approval for a 2 bedroom house, with a large backyard in Huachuca City, Arizona. We already put a (refundable) deposit on an apartment, but if we really do find something better, then I'm sold!
I just 11 letters from Cole. YES, 11! I have been patiently waiting for 2 weeks and then I get them all at once! Holy Crap!! He is doing well!! So much to say, so hard to type.
He wants mexican food, candy, caffeine, gatorade, cheesecake, chocolate, popcorn, music and lots of attention. Who would blame him?! Me too!!! I think he is pregnant. Speaking of pregnant, he said he wants to have kids with me... good??? Shouldn't have we discussed this before we got married? I thought we had! Man... he MUST be lonely!!
His platoon is doing fantastic! He said other than all the specialized training, they are basically in Ranger boot camp. He said it's hard as hell and they hardly ever get an special privileges. They are what they are.
He sent me a dog tag! Sweetest gift ever! It gold and says "Private Property of a Soldier" with the Army emblem underneath. What a sweetheart! He also sent me a card, THE MOST PERFECT CARD! It said Happy Birthday, but he apologized and said he will do something better for my birthday (which is August 1st, 3 days before I get to see him- which will be the best present EVER!!).
He asked his Drill Sergeant if he could fly back with me to Arizona (they are suppose to ask permission), the DS says "Fuck you." and walked away. Poor Cole.
He seems WAY more motivated than I have ever seen him, more like himself now than he has been the last 5 weeks. I can't believe only 34 days left!! That a month and a few naps!!! The best part is, I will (hopefully) be so occupied with moving that time is going to fly by. In a way, it really has already. I mean it's JULY for cryin' out loud!
Someone wrote Cole an anonymous letter. Saying I had cheated on him and then apologized. WHO WOULD DO SOMETHING LIKE THAT?! Anyone who knows Cole and I, KNOWS we are absolutely inseparable, absolutely IN LOVE and absolutely faithful. Honestly, if I happen to ever come across that person, I WILL rip their throat out. You don't do that. You just don't. So whoever it was is too young and immature for their own good or is way to jealous and shouldn't be wasting their time. I don't mean to be so... osfkhgwerhglkwejrgw;ergjk... but you NEVER threaten someone elses relationship for your own selfish needs. People like that have karma coming to them and God will take care of whatever is left.
Anyways, he is doing great! I am doing great! We are nearing what is the start to another new chapter in our lives, truly being married and living on our own. The Army has trained me well so far and I am so proud to be an Army Wife. Cole makes me happier than anything in the world and he is my hero.
Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Sunday, June 13, 2010
Motivation.. What's that?!
This weeks word: Motivation.
It's a cool word and all, but why?
Because that's what life is. Finding that motivation and using it EVERYDAY. Cole is my motivation. And why wouldn't it be?! I figure I can look at it two ways- be excited for the days that have already gone by, or be discouraged by the days that seem like they are frozen in front of me.
Cole write to me telling me how inspired he is and how excited he is to see me. That's what keeps him going. Honestly, me too!! =] It's interesting how 25,000 miles can make you such a stronger person. Full of self-control, patience and courage.
I am moving to Sierra Vista, Arizona in a little over a month! July 18th if we want to get all specific now! I am SO excited! We are starting a life together!!! The challenge was- picking an apartment out of our three choices of complex's. Sounds easy? Close your eyes and point, right? But wait... that complex keeps nailing me with more and more "deposits" and "fees", while this other one is cheaper, smaller and less amenities, it's affordable! I vote affordability... and I am SURE Cole would feel the same way. So I decided on a one bedroom, one back 600 sq. ft. apartment. Simple.
What else is new? I am going to the gym!! Why? I'm "skinny" right? WRONG. I REFUSE to be the fat wife that my husband doesn't recognize when I see him on graduation day! I want to be that in-shape, fit woman who will get up every morning at 5am and run 3 miles with him! And... I don't want stomach flab nastiness. I refuse. The easy part is getting my legs and arms all muscular again. My legs already feel a 100's better, but I am still glaring at my "abs" in the mirror every morning.
So, the fitness plan? Gym everyday. Cardio for at least 20 min when using other machines in the same day or at least 40min with a good cool down and some ab work. CUT OUT ANY fast food. It's the devil. And then... slowly start cutting out unnecessary sugars. I feel like the Jamba Juice in front of me is too much sugar, but then I realize it's better than a Slurpee and I am taking baby steps to get to my goal. Oh! My goal! Run 3 miles and to look HOT for graduation! Haha.
I have been writing Cole everyday... and I mean EVERYDAY. Sometimes more than once a day!
As I was writing this, I got my first phone call from Cole. It was the most intense moment of my life pressing the answer button. It was like instant adrenaline! It was hard to talk for both of us... I scream "Hi Baby!" and he said "Hey babe!! I don't have much time so tell me EVERYTHING!". That was my highlight of the phone call. Jitters and trying to hold back tears and eventually all I could sputter by the end of the 7 min was "I am so sorry... I love you sooo much." He then yelled "Crap! I have to go! I love you too soo much!" *Click*. I just stood there with the phone to my ear crying my eyes out. All he could think about was stressing if everything at home was okay... IT"S OKAY!!! I PROMISE!!! Work on being a bad ass and not worrying so much! I wish I could just give him a hug, even a short one, so he would know it was all okay.
I guess I have to settle for letters for now. Those don't make me feel much better either. It takes a whole week to get them and even longer if the drill instructor decided to hold them awhile.
I have my plane ticket to go an see him!! I feel like it is so far away, but if I think about it right, I am only moving in a month!! And then once I get to Arizona, it is smoooooth sailing!!
It's a cool word and all, but why?
Because that's what life is. Finding that motivation and using it EVERYDAY. Cole is my motivation. And why wouldn't it be?! I figure I can look at it two ways- be excited for the days that have already gone by, or be discouraged by the days that seem like they are frozen in front of me.
Cole write to me telling me how inspired he is and how excited he is to see me. That's what keeps him going. Honestly, me too!! =] It's interesting how 25,000 miles can make you such a stronger person. Full of self-control, patience and courage.
I am moving to Sierra Vista, Arizona in a little over a month! July 18th if we want to get all specific now! I am SO excited! We are starting a life together!!! The challenge was- picking an apartment out of our three choices of complex's. Sounds easy? Close your eyes and point, right? But wait... that complex keeps nailing me with more and more "deposits" and "fees", while this other one is cheaper, smaller and less amenities, it's affordable! I vote affordability... and I am SURE Cole would feel the same way. So I decided on a one bedroom, one back 600 sq. ft. apartment. Simple.
What else is new? I am going to the gym!! Why? I'm "skinny" right? WRONG. I REFUSE to be the fat wife that my husband doesn't recognize when I see him on graduation day! I want to be that in-shape, fit woman who will get up every morning at 5am and run 3 miles with him! And... I don't want stomach flab nastiness. I refuse. The easy part is getting my legs and arms all muscular again. My legs already feel a 100's better, but I am still glaring at my "abs" in the mirror every morning.
So, the fitness plan? Gym everyday. Cardio for at least 20 min when using other machines in the same day or at least 40min with a good cool down and some ab work. CUT OUT ANY fast food. It's the devil. And then... slowly start cutting out unnecessary sugars. I feel like the Jamba Juice in front of me is too much sugar, but then I realize it's better than a Slurpee and I am taking baby steps to get to my goal. Oh! My goal! Run 3 miles and to look HOT for graduation! Haha.
I have been writing Cole everyday... and I mean EVERYDAY. Sometimes more than once a day!
As I was writing this, I got my first phone call from Cole. It was the most intense moment of my life pressing the answer button. It was like instant adrenaline! It was hard to talk for both of us... I scream "Hi Baby!" and he said "Hey babe!! I don't have much time so tell me EVERYTHING!". That was my highlight of the phone call. Jitters and trying to hold back tears and eventually all I could sputter by the end of the 7 min was "I am so sorry... I love you sooo much." He then yelled "Crap! I have to go! I love you too soo much!" *Click*. I just stood there with the phone to my ear crying my eyes out. All he could think about was stressing if everything at home was okay... IT"S OKAY!!! I PROMISE!!! Work on being a bad ass and not worrying so much! I wish I could just give him a hug, even a short one, so he would know it was all okay.
I guess I have to settle for letters for now. Those don't make me feel much better either. It takes a whole week to get them and even longer if the drill instructor decided to hold them awhile.
I have my plane ticket to go an see him!! I feel like it is so far away, but if I think about it right, I am only moving in a month!! And then once I get to Arizona, it is smoooooth sailing!!
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